What the fuck is that going to be like? Parents and parenting Family features. Just being alone with Pete, drinking coffee and nothing else, is a deep pleasure. When I have sex I can forget all that control and be something different, unembarrassed and lustful, like an animal, but also absolutely human in a dark and disgusting way. It frees us from cowering under the duvet listening out for small feet. They had small children, but whenever I passed them on the dirt track that led to their cabin, Janey would be sitting right next to Powder on the bench seat in the front of his pickup. I miss the people we were, before we became carers.